I'm sorry, smonster. I've had insomnia a lot this week, and it's maddening. Sending you sleep vibes from the other coast.

I'm about to go pick Drew up from the airport (yay!). He's only home until Saturday and then gone on business again until the 28th. It's good since business was slow until recently, but I miss him.

Today, my advisor responded to an email promptly, was early for a meeting, and had talked to a few people about being on my defense committee. And when I couldn't remember something about my research, he told me that it's OK, I'm not expected to remember everything, and to try not to let myself get too stressed.

Clearly one of the signs on the apocalypse.

And I, currently, have way too many idiot shit things in my life to handle that make me want to punch the universe.

Seems wrong to not reimburse me for 4 holidays I had to work.

It does seem wrong. That's too bad.

Sleep~ma for all you people who are up and do not want to be.

I bet I could ride a recumbent trike. Looks like fun, actually.

OK. Bed time.

My advisor has also grown a beard. I'm suspicious

wait, isn't the evil twin supposed to have a beard?

As long as its not a goatee you're in the clear evil-twin-wise.

My guess is your original adviser was the evil twin. He shaved his goatee. This is the virtuous twin. Come to think of it, if we are living in the early days of the evil alternate universe from Star Trek that would explain a lot of recent history.

I know Anna is evil, but she is so darn sexy.

As long as its not a goatee you're in the clear evil-twin-wise.

In this case, I think the evil twin IS the good twin!!

I'm scared if Mercury is going into retrograde RIGHT BEFORE I close on my house! I need NO communication difficulties, thank you!!

I am ignoring this talk of Mercury. For I will be signing a lease without seeing the apartment. Well, I hope to. Speaking of, my friend swung by the address, and gave it two thumbs up. Nice area, clean building, good lighting in public areas. I'm starting to get excited about it! But it looks like it doesn't get uverse or fios. Not deal breakers, but bah. But, it does have a tiny balcony, and the dude said that with tripod stand, I could do a dish. Are any of the dish services any good? Do they do internet too? I am so ignorant on those fronts.

OK, i should sleep. But I have first movers estimate person coming in the AM. Anxiety! Blargh!

Glamcookie, my friend wrote this: (I framed it as having a friend who had a child pass recently, hence her responding to me that way.)

All I can say is that the letters which were written from the heart touched me the most and yours (the many that you sent!) were in that category. Anything you say from the heart will be a comfort. Flowers were always appreciated. Donations in his name. Really any gesture that moves you will help her through. It sucks. No way around it. The things that made me feel worse were the obvious things you would NEVER say! “He’s in a better place.” “Not meant to be.” “In God’s loving hands.” Blah, blah, blah. Those people were so unhelpful and lame – just trying to make themselves feel better.

So, I think your note is perfect (I thought so before, too) and that you can't go wrong with any sweet remembrance. In L's case, I donated to Ronald McDonald House because they helped L SO much when Ryan was in the NICU (where he spent his whole 3 months).

It's funny, I always thought he lived for much longer, but his birthday was yesterday! I think I started counting him as being born when L and I saw the Indigo Girls in a private concert (thanks, KFOG), sat in the front row, and Ryan kicked in rhythm for the whole show. Apparently I counted that as his entry into our lives. That was in January of 2002. He was born on April 5 and died on 4th of July weekend.