Where's my kalbot at?

I called my mom—I decided that my original plan of not telling them for a while and just randomly dropping it in one day as oh by the way I got a promotion a few weeks ago would just be childish and inappropriate—and she of course asked how much I made now ("Oh, that's not bad!" she said, surprised) and then asked whether I could go finish my PhD now. I told her I had no intention of doing so, and could she please just focus on the good and stop criticizing my life? She didn't know how that was criticizing my life; all she said was could I get a PhD now. I told her it was criticizing my personal choices, and I knew she was upset I didn't finish it. Thankfully, she backed off and just congratulated me.

Good job, P-C. That must have been difficult for you (but it's so good, for both of you).

New Year's thought:

This year, I want to learn how to be happy with the life I'm living without taking too much things on myself and killing and exhausting myself in the process. Because I think I deserve to, especially after I understood what's deriving so many energies out of me*

And I have no idea how to do this.

The past year I was lazier then I was the previous years, no doubt. But I had a bag of guilt to accompany me for "not doing enough".

How does one gets rid of this feeling?

Shir when you figure all this out, would you please tutor me, because...yeah. Just yeah. I'm glad you got good news on your living situation.

Ya, that's what I was telling my sister. She was "I don't think drugs is the best way of getting booze out of your system". I was trying to explain how it takes away the mental half of the addiction so there is no temptation to drink while your body goes through the physical withdrawl symptoms. She relunctantly came around. She's a bit bull headed sometimes.

It can be necessary physically, too, to avoid the DTs. Besides, he's post-surgical. Now is not the time for toughing it out. Here's much healing~ma for your father, omnis. (And some peace of mind for you. If that means more Nicholas Cage, then have at it.)

I thought BSG was great, but yeah things make less sense as the series went on. I also found the podcasts interesting despite RDM's ego.

I'm glad Rigatoni's kidney is working, albeit overtime. Much continued kitty~ma toward him, Fred.

In unrelated news, I've been looking for a duvet cover without knowing exactly what I want, just knowing that what I was seeing wasn't it. Well, today I ran across this and realized that that was exactly what I was looking for. Yay! I don't care if I have to wait until November for it to ship. I can stop poking around bedding sites and stores and obsess about other things for a while.

There are times in the podcast where RDM talks about how letting the viewer decide what actually happened was the wise decision and I'm all "No, no it wasn't, you just wrote yourself into a corner."

Damn. I was so hoping to make it through a whole day without falling asleep, and also to get some work done. I am a bit rubbish.

Shir, I'm glad to hear your living situation is likely to be less complicated than you thought.

I thought BSG was great, but yeah things make less sense as the series went on.

Yep. Constant battle between 'dude, this is awesome' and 'WTF, please?', with the former generally winning, after I had words with the part of my brain that was determined to argue rather than quietly sit back and love every minute.

Oh, a clarification about my new year's decision:

The stuff-that-I-won't-do-despite-myself? It's stuff that I want to and love to do and feeling somewhat obligated doing in a imaginary perfect world. But since I'm idealist, and striving towards said perfect reality for me and mine, I'm trying to do all those things.

And yes, in the long term, it's exhausting me. You'd think almost-falling-apart 3 years ago would have taught me better. Only idealism (or I don't know what it is or how to call it, really. Perhaps the "I'm SuperWoman who can do all and still bake cookies" complex?) is an itch I cannot keep calm for long.

I know it's immature. I know I'm immature about a lot of things, and don't know what to do so I won't feel like it. And trust me, the part of me who wants to scream "yes I can! I can to all of it!" like a 3 year old is also quite ashamed of itself. And even when I can make everything work, I still want more. I'm an addict to being in control of everything and "getting away with it" (and "it", I guess, is my humanity). And yes, I know I'm not realistic. But the 3 year old in my screams real hard, and I'm tempted to try, everytime.

But hey, realizing your problem is 1/2 way through solving it, right?

Edit: my grammar can be also a bitch, sometimes.

I'm glad Rigatoni's doing slightly better. Continued kitty~ma.

There are times in the podcast where RDM talks about how letting the viewer decide what actually happened was the wise decision and I'm all "No, no it wasn't, you just wrote yourself into a corner."

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Deliberately ambiguous MY ANGELIC CYLON ASS.

I thought BSG was great, but yeah things make less sense as the series went on.

Well, omnis and I were talking about the original series from the 70s, but yeah - for all that every episode in the first season ended with "And They Have a Plan", it's obvious by the 4th that RDM didn't.

He should have known better; the arc of development he chose for ST:DS9 was not half-bad.

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That being the biggest example.