I seem to remember a recent Christmas/birthday where she asked you ahead of time what she should be watching for in the mail, and she had the exact same "only one?" reaction, didn't she?

Yep. Her birthday.

I think the only reason I'm continually surprised is because I block them out.

Argh. This constant level of stress and anxiety is getting to me. I need a break. Just some time without stress, because otherwise I fear I will flip out like a mammal.

Maybe if I had a good cry, I'd feel better. But I have a hard time crying. Lately, it seems that every time I feel like I'm going to cry, I'm in a public place, like on a train or at work or something.

Ugh, tommy. I am so sorry. Living situation stress always seems to have a special hell level of stress because it triggers that deep fear of not being housed or safe.

Will you be able to have a mellow weekend?

tommyrot, if I were close to you, I'd take you out to have a few drinks. Just to make the crying easier. Even if it's in public, it's a bar. That doesn't really count public.

Sorry you feel this way.

Barb, what Sparky said.

Will you be able to have a mellow weekend?

Hopefully. I have to make plans....

Maybe I should call my psychiatrist and tell him I'm having a little emergency... maybe he can prescribe something short-term....

Awww tommy. I totally feel for you, since I tend to have a similar "hoping it will go away" reaction to bad things.

Have some kitty love... [link]

but now she's disappointed because, and I quote, "I thought there was going to be another box coming."

Because I don't have a great filter when it comes to family, I probably would have said "and I thought you would have become a appreciative person by now, but we don't always get what we want." or "and I thought one gift was better than nothing, but I can change that for the next occassion since you are never pleased with anything."

oh family.

Have some kitty love... [link]

Awwww....

"and I thought one gift was better than nothing, but I can change that for the next occassion since you are never pleased with anything."

msbelle is wise.

Oh, and thanks for all the support. It means a lot.

A friend told me that I'm OK - I'm not a bad person because of all of this. That helped a lot too.