Happy new years, y'all.

Thanks for all the sympathies and brackets. It means a lot that you guys are kind of here with me. I'm away from Tom and my sister and my mom are gone now too. I am not feeling particularly expressive right now, like words are completely inadequate to describe what's going on (although of course they are not, really, I'm just to tired and overwhelmed to work out what they are). But it all comes down to: this sucks. And is weird. And is crap. And sucks some more. But is part of living I guess. It's just generally a messy end, you know, leaving people forever.

I drank sambuca tonight and I believe I will regret it tomorrow. But, que sera que sera. Or sometin' sometin'.

May there be peace and prosperity in the New Year, growing more than we expect it.

((((Nora))))

HOoray for home and the good drugs, GC.

And a very Happy New Year to you all, lovelies!

We've dumped the corpse of 2008. Speaking of corpses, now begins the 20 day countdown to the end of the Shrub Presidency.

(((Nora))) So sorry for your loss.

Belated get-well-no-pain-ma to GC.

I have partied. I have bumped and grinded, more than I actually wanted to. I have seen ridiculous clothing. It's been fun. I went looking for boyz and one latched onto me. Kinda rude to my friend so it won't go anywhere most likely, but I achieved my goal for the evening. I was given non-alcoholic apple cider instead of promised champagne, which is totally bogus, but I have champagne now so all is well in the world.

I wish nothing but the best of and in life for each and every one of us.

Happy new year everyone. may it be better than last, even if last year was a great year for you.

(((Nora))) I hadn't realized you didn't have Tom there with you; I'm so sorry for your loss, and sorry that you have to get through this immediate grief without his good self beside you. Vibing all possible peace to your family, and blessings on your uncle's passing and his memory, and a safe and peaceful return to home and partner and comfort for you when this is done.

(((Glamcookie))) I'm glad you're home with of champagne and a shower and a doting wife and cats.

All sorts of pain-treatment~ma to Glam and sj and Hil and all the other Bitches trying to cope with physical miseries.

Lastly... mmmmmm, Vicodin. I've never hallucinated with any prescription drug, ever, but morphine made me queasy and half-crazed with itching. Vicodin, OTOH, oh so perfect.

I hadn't realized you didn't have Tom there with you; I'm so sorry for your loss, and sorry that you have to get through this immediate grief without his good self beside you.

Yeah, the new job thing made him joining me difficult at best. When I thought I was going back on Wednesday it seemed much more doable.

Off to the funeral home today and to pray I don't need to change my flight AGAIN. I really want to get home! (currently I am scheduled to leave Saturday at 12:30).

Man, I am wiped.

{{{Nora}}} Please don't hesitate to ask for anything. So much love to you and yours.

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I had to skip again. Life being busy and crazy and stuff. I have a feeling this is the new me. It feels good except for missing my Bitches. Happy New Year to you all!

(((((Nora))))) I'm so sorry you are there by yourself. If there is anything at all I can do when you get home, please let me know.

Thank you, JZ. That is such a sweet wish. If the only positive changed I make in 09 is to find a way to deal with pain, it would be more than enough. The last couple days have been hell.