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Spike's Bitches 42: Which question do you want me to answer first?  

[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


amych - Aug 06, 2008 4:05:33 pm PDT #47 of 10001
Now let us crush something soft and watch it fountain blood. That is a girlish thing to want to do, yes?

Billboard!Tep is fucking hot.


Steph L. - Aug 06, 2008 4:06:29 pm PDT #48 of 10001
Apparently if you're enough of a power nerd, there is nothing that cannot be flowcharted.

Is the cheap AD one that makes you gain weight? Or makes you anti-sex?

Not all ADs affect all people the same way. Having been down that pit of hell myself, I firmly believe the most important thing is to start feeling better ASAP. Which is where the drugs come in. Once the drugs have you feeling like you can benefit from talky therapy, then ideally you wouldn't have to take the ADs forever and ever.

Which is not to say you can just take them for a couple of weeks and BAM!, instant happy! But you know that. I feel like, the drugs get you to where you can cope with stuff, and learn from therapy. And what you learn *can* keep you in a place where you might not need the ADs. I stopped mine after 4 years on Zoloft, because my therapy helped me so much. (And I don't mean that I'm all sane and shit, and able to cope with every situation, because I'm not sane and I *can't* cope with every situation. But I can cope with *most,* which I think is pretty fucking good.)

Anyway. Shorter version of what I just babbled about: don't worry about weight gain or potentially decreased sex drive -- *if* the drugs lead to either side effect, (1) you might not be on the drugs for a long time anyway, and/or (2) you could switch drugs. Lots of people do.

The most important thing is to help you, and I think that Step 1 is drugs.


DavidS - Aug 06, 2008 4:07:17 pm PDT #49 of 10001
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."

Billboard!Tep is fucking hot.

Look out Cincinnati!


Susan W. - Aug 06, 2008 4:08:02 pm PDT #50 of 10001
Good Trouble and Righteous Fights

Top 50?

ETA Hot Teppy!

And I can't believe I got Top 50, given that the old Bitches had already ended before I left the office to go to a work party and then to take advantage of the fact the party was on the main campus to go to the library and breathe old book smell and find some books on Wellington and Napoleon I haven't read yet.


brenda m - Aug 06, 2008 4:08:26 pm PDT #51 of 10001
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there

Tep, that is a fabulous picture of you.


Amy - Aug 06, 2008 4:12:00 pm PDT #52 of 10001
Because books.

meara, the Citalopram/Lexapro has no side effects for me, aside from being a little sleepy the first week or two. And what brenda said about the sex -- so not a problem.

Of course, there are lots of different ADs out there, all with different side effects, but I'm sure there are more than the one on the $4 list. You can look it up on Target or ... somewhere. Stephen looked it up for me, and I can ask where he found it.

Barb, the sci fi comment made me snort iced tea. ::wipes face sheepishly:: Your parents, dude. That's ... some kind of story, all right.

Teppy on a billboard! So cool.

sj, I'm still having trouble processing the fact that people are so fucking rude. I would *never* ask that! And to email about it, not, like, drop into a casual conversation while you're hanging out or something, which seems at least a little less offensive? People are so fucking entitled. "I want to know, so tell me!" Jesus.


meara - Aug 06, 2008 4:12:18 pm PDT #53 of 10001

Meh, more worried about weight gain than sex--sex I can (and have) certainly do without, and figure if/when I was OK to be done with drugs it would be a non issue. But weight gain is a bigger problem (er, literally!), cause then you have to actually, y'know, work at it. IJS. And having worked in the drug industry, while I'm aware that all drugs affect people differently (heck, one drug I am currently taking is well known for it's anorexic side effects, some people have to stop taking it because they just stop eating when they're on it...me, I haven't had that at all, though I was kinda hoping for a little!). But in as much as starting from scratch not knowing which would be effective for the main purpose of "make me HAPPY!" is a crapshoot, I'd rather avoid ones that are known for those side effects, y'know?

And of course, this is all theoretical. Lord knows, a doctor could talk to me and say "Meh, you're a mess, but drugs won't help ya". Or "I ALWAYS start people on Drug X" or whatever. But I like to be a well-informed patient. :)


Steph L. - Aug 06, 2008 4:13:43 pm PDT #54 of 10001
Apparently if you're enough of a power nerd, there is nothing that cannot be flowcharted.

Billboard!Tep is fucking hot.

The agency dudes were cracking me up, because in the finished billboard, I'll be holding an X-ray (or MRI film, whatever). But because it's going to be MUCH easier for them to Photoshop it in, they just had me holding my hand up like I was holding a piece of paper, and they kept yelling things like "Is that a LEMUR in your hand?!?" or my favorite "A beer? Why, don't mind if I do!"


Barb - Aug 06, 2008 4:20:28 pm PDT #55 of 10001
“Not dead yet!”

Barb, the sci fi comment made me snort iced tea. ::wipes face sheepishly:: Your parents, dude. That's ... some kind of story, all right.

S'okay, babe. You know how it is- gotta laugh about it because the alternatives would land me on the evening news and orange jumpsuit with sideseam pockets and we all know how I feel about those


Glamcookie - Aug 06, 2008 4:22:26 pm PDT #56 of 10001
I know my own heart and understand my fellow man. But I am made unlike anyone I have ever met. I dare to say I am like no one in the whole world. - Anne Lister

Go Steph! Hot photo. Can't wait to see the billboard shot!