So, tonight is my last night in Michigan. I fly back to L.A. tomorrow. Stoopid early. But it means I get into L.A. at, like, noon.
This has been a weird trip.
I got to see family I haven't seen in a while. That was mostly good (and occasionally stressful).
I also got to see people that I miss like a part of my own body, they are that important to me.
But this place is not home in any way shape or form any more. And damn, do I need to get back to LA. I need to smell the ocean, and see the mountains, and be surrounded by city and concrete and steel.
Michigan has a green color that I miss, and almost never get to see in California. But I need to get back to my home.
I don't know. Maybe the ground is just too still out here.
so ... New Yorkers don't trust air they can't see and Californians don't trust ground that doesn't move?
I wish I had a home like that, Sean. Which I feel like I don't despite knocking around the same metro area my whole life.
Sean, even though I'm somewhere on the ocean right now, and not in LA, you are missed. LA will be better for having you back. Looking forward to seeing you when I finally get back home myself.
Michigan has a green color that I miss
When I was in Pennsylvania, I would just stand at windows and stare. Green. Everywhere. With no sprinklers. Trees tightly packed and hanging over the roads, and no one planted them.
The people, not so much, but my god, I've missed my hills.
. . . but I'll never live there again, unless I can spend the summer months somewhere with a dry climate. Or 30 degrees cooler.
I miss Michigan every summer. February, not so much. I'm not sure that NC is "home" per se (is it weird to feel a place is a temporary residence for 25 years?), but it's a lovely place to live nonetheless.
My prescription says lorazepam substituted for ativan. Same thing?
I'm trying to decide if I should start the effexor tonight or not. I was looking forward to going to the farmer's market tomorrow. I haven't been for a couple of weeks. But I'm always kind of out of it for the first week or so after starting an AD, and I don't think I will be able to drive. The bottle doesn't mention anything about interactions. Anything I should be worrying about that I don't remember?
t /pill phobia
My prescription says lorazepam substituted for ativan. Same thing?
Same thing. They can only sub the same active drug/dose, but always ask if you have any worries about it.
is it weird to feel a place is a temporary residence for 25 years?
Not at all. I've been living in Florida for 21 years and it still doesn't feel like 'home'. I miss California dreadfully and ache to move back.
