had I gotten pregnant accidentally I'd have gone to term.

One of the things I'd thought through with was this. And absent my Like That person, I'd likely choose differently. It's weird. It kind of freaks me out that I'd only choose to be a parent because of someone else. But then, I don't really believe there is a someone else, so it makes it theoretically easy!

Then we walked across the way to a new to me cupcake place. Worst Cupcake I've Had from a Non Grocery Store baker

Oh no! That's so sad. Why were they awful?

Kat, do you mean you are on Day 5 with NO WATER???

meara, I'll tell you what Alibelle said. They just tasted cheap. They went for too fancy (chocolate with cream cheese covered with ganache and chocolate shavings). And it just tasted meh. The cream cheese wasn't cream cheesy at all (it looked like bland white cake!) and the ganache tasted hostessy-plasticy. And the cake itself was dry.

After the first bite, I thought, "huh. that's a waste of calories."

Nope. We've had water. But if we aren't careful, it overflows the release thingy in the side yard which is, as you can imagine, yucky.

What a shame, Kat. But I'm impressed by the self-control of getting rid of it, once you realized it wasn't worth the calories. I sometimes have problems with that.

I love cupcakes, and have sometimes been impressed by the flavor combinations I've found at cupcake stores, but usually think the ones I make at home taste better, because they're moister and fresher and the buttercream is less dried out. ...but I still need to figure out what to do with the other 22 cupcakes once I've had a couple. I wonder if the music school students across the street would buy them if I set up a stand? Heh.

It kind of freaks me out that I'd only choose to be a parent because of someone else.

But it's a big deal! The difference between being a single parent and not is something to be carefully considered.

Watching Remington Steele is making me all schmaltzy. I don't know what has become of me.

I guess trying to measure happiness and when it happens etc seems sort of impossible. I have moments where I am happier than I have ever been or even happier and more in love than I had ever imagined was possible (and in fact, on the in love part, I find it all rather dangerous that anyone could love this much). There are other moments when I am in more despair than I've ever been.

Yeah, I have a strong suspicion most parents would look at Gilbert's research and conclude he was pretty much missing the whole point of the children-having experience.

I wonder if the music school students across the street would buy them if I set up a stand?

HAHAHAH! you should do this!

We need a buffista cupcake tasting.

I wish Jilli lived closer so she could be Good Aunty for Noah and Grace.

Oh, I would LOVE that. I would read to them, and teach them what noises friendly monsters make, and and and ...

I get a fuckload of joy out of other peoples' kids. Even when I've been the primary temporarily and they are doing shit like bloody headwounds and ADHD meltdowns that require full-body smackdowns.

nods

I get huge huge amounts of joy from my friends' kidlings. I am always excited when/if friends announce they're expecting, because that means NEW babies to play with -- and then give back. I never wanted to have children of my own, ever, but I love my extended family of nieces and nephews.

(I played with dolls when I was little, but I preferred stuffed animals because they didn't need "looking after" like baby dolls, but instead could help me plot to go find a magic castle, take it over, and then rule the land. )

Oh, cupcakes. I love you so.

I tried out Yummy Cupcakes in Burbank last month and was very impressed. Their banana cream pie cupcake was to die for.

Oh, Stephen Colbert, you are adorable. Like a giddy child talking with the astronaut, who is charming. It's awesome.