But do we really "decide" that? I actually decided to be a hardass, but it turned out not to be something I could just choose to do. Maybe everyone (who isn't naturally hardassed) has to have that learning experience before we have the experience to toughen us up.
I don't know. I always pretended to be a hardass in the beginning of the semester, but eventually my students realized that (for the most part) I wasn't. One student even confessed at the end of the semester that he knew someone who had dropped the class because I was so mean and it was going to be "so hard", all while laughing because that so obviously wasn't the case.
I do think it was a choice to be tough in the beginning, knowing that it's hard to keep control of things if you don't at least start that way, but I also think it played into the natural tendency many people seem to have meeting me--that I'm someone to be feared.
My doctor can't find my test results, my furnace wouldn't work for the oil guy, and I didn't bring the landlord's number with me. Can I have a do over today?
Dear Friend And Editor:
Stop being so cool. I'm not supposed to be in love with you anymore. Telling me I'm brilliant is not helpful.
Platonic love,
Me.
P.S. If you really admire my brain, how come your gf is such an idot? I'm just saying.
sj, come sit in the grumpy corner with me! I'll bring pie!
< sits in the corner with Glamcookie & erika >
oh dear. what's going on d? sameoldass?
sj, come sit in the grumpy corner with me! I'll bring pie!
Pie?
Snuggles into the corner with Glamcookie
I'm home now. Mom went home. I left a message to my landlord who hasn't called me back. TCG is aggravated that I keep calling him at work. Mom is aggravated that I'm so cranky, and I'm aggravated that I have to go back to the doctor's tomorrow because of their incompetence. Is it too early for alcohol?
t passes Fernet to my fellow crankmonsters
