Fay, is that the "Still?" "Always" thing you're quoting? Cause... sniff!

Yep. That bit and the other bit, from when he'd first realised his fuckup and was wrecked by it, and became Dumbledore's bitch:

"Hide them all, then," he croaked. "Keep her - them - safe. Please."

"And what will you give me in return?"

"In - in return?" Snape gaped at Dumbledore, and Harry expected him to protest, but after a long moment he said, "Anything."

...oh, fuck. And now I am crying.

::blows nose again::

Shall we call you Wanda, then?

I should be so lucky! Stupid boy.

Shall we call you Wanda, then?

I should be so lucky! Stupid boy.

On the contrary -- HE should be so lucky.

On the contrary -- HE should be so lucky.

Alas, he clearly has not realised this. And since he's shortly off to China for the foreseeable future, I'm not particularly optimistic about the Cluestick Fairies smacking him upside the head any time soon.

On the one hand, I feel that I should be cheered by having stumbled across a cute* heterosexual Englishman my own age (well, a year older), who is funny, clever, talented, passionate about words, blessedly unhomophobic AND SINGLE. In Bangkok. I mean, that's like finding Willy Wonka's Golden Ticket. Or, you know, it's like seeing Willy Wonka's Golden Ticket on the other side of an impassible river, or something. Nice to know it's there - frustrating as hell to see it's out of reach. Bad job, Universe. No more taunting Fay.

*I think he's cute. My mates J and E are both far more interested in his very pretty best friend, but said best friend leaves me thinking '...eh.'

And since he's shortly off to China for the foreseeable future, I'm not particularly optimistic about the Cluestick Fairies smacking him upside the head any time soon.

see, I envision a drunken snogging in your future.

*I think he's cute. My mates J and E are both far more interested in his very pretty best friend, but said best friend leaves me thinking '...eh.'

the pretty goes away, but the clever, talented, passionate bit doesn't. I'd MUCH rather have the latter than the former.

sending out - house ma~~~~ and lung ma~~~ and health ma~~~~and I-don't-need-no stinking-sleep ma~~~

And in my own health news, I am trying to decide if yesterday was a fluke or not. I feel ok now, but I haven't done anything yet. But since I slept a lot once I came home , even if it was a fluke I'm not going to worry about it

That bit and the other bit, from when he'd first realised his fuckup and was wrecked by it, and became Dumbledore's bitch:

Oh right, of course, the scene I'd BLOCKED OUT because it was TOO DAMN SAD and LIFE IS UNFAIR and... oh, thanks, Fay. Hi, high school students, the Harry Potter books have made me cry.

Seriously, as far as I was concerned those books should have been subtitled: More Ways Life Screws Over Severus Snape, and Deathly Hallows: MWLSOSS just put the cap on the pen.

(Obviously I can't remember what the right expression there is. The foam on the skunked beer? The topper on the moldy Havisham wedding cake of life? The gilding on the decaying carnivorous lily?)

nods.

I spent the last few chapters of Half Blood Prince just weeping my eyes out, because I was so entirely on the 'Snape's a Good Guy, You Fool!' train, and it just killed me that everyone, even Minerva, thought he was an evil bastard. Argh. When he was clearly just wrecked by what Albus had made him do (mirroring Harry in the earlier scene in the cave, with some of the very same language, even). And then Deathly Hallows ... after a while I couldn't actually see the page during That Chapter, because I was weeping so damn hard. Ack. Poor greasy bastard. (Unfortunately I've never been able to warm up to James since the bullying thing in the penseive. What the fuck, Lily? I mean, seriously - WTF? Pick someone who is less of a knob, for heaven's sakes! ...oh, God, but the sheer fucking awfulness of that Snape-Harry dynamic, with Snape seeing James in miniature, and all the time he should have been seeing Lily. I mean, not in a dodgy way, but just - God. So sad.)

Unfortunately I've never been able to warm up to James since the bullying thing in the penseive.

Well, they never showed a contrasting scene, did they? I mean, Sirius says it was all about being 16-year-old assholes, but we never get to see James not being an asshole! Ever! Er, do we? I may have forgotten. Even Pettigrew got a more rounded characterization, while with James it's sort of "Here's him as a huge jerk at 16, and then, well, people say he got better."

ETA: Sirius was quite possibly a bigger asshole, but I can see other aspects to his character and believe in him changing (er, given the chance).

Job ~ma Aims!