Oh, Fay. No. Ouch.

This post has no other real content other than to announce I am working to switch over to gmail. I have changed my profile addy. I'm not dumping my old e-mail address - at least not for a while - but want to move as much to gmail as possible.

That is all.

Thank you.

Try the fish.

Could be worse. My friend (Liberty) has a brother named Richard Nixon Lastname.

So, I'm very situationally depressed today. And it's icky outside. And I'm seriously considering canceling my tutoring appointments and just staying at home in my jammies all day, because, really? I don't feel like bursting into tears in front of my tutoring students.

vw, any chance you'll feel better by getting out? I know I've had similar situations where I feel like crap inside but once I get out and put on a face for The Humans, I actually do get better.

Yeah, I'm considering it. I'm just not sure it's gonna work.

The thing that is kind of sucky is that the only person that has all of the context of this situation is my therapist, and she's out of town until Friday. I mean, I could call or page the covering therapist, but it would take so long to explain the backstory, that it just doesn't feel worth it.

And quite frankly, I just don't really feel like talking about it with anyone. And, in my experience, it doesn't get better until I do that, when it's as situational as this is. So, there's a big part of me that feels like today is about distress tolerance, not opposite to emotion action (sorry...therapy terms).

So the distress tolerance is just hunkering down until you can talk to your therapist, right? {{{vw}}} You've been doing so well lately. You'll make it through the day.

Our Christmas tree in the new bay window.

I stupidly bought the kids these plastic snow globes that play obnoxious, tinny Christmas carols and I'm now praying the batteries run down quickly.

vw, what you are upset about - well that situation just sucks. You have to take care of yourself first or you won't be able to take care of anyone else - remember that as you make your decision. If you have to take today as a mental health day, do it, and count yourself lucky that your job is flexible enough that you can. If you are not sure if you should do that because you are not sure if you deserve to take good care of yourself - take the day. If you find yourself waffling because you really are not sure what you need to do to take care of yourself - then it might be a good idea to try going in, because you can always change your mind, cancel appointments and go home, if need be. You do deserve to take care of yourself.

{{vw}} Take care of yourself!

Yesterday we moved everything we possibly could out of the apt and into the house. I'm not sure I can raise my arms above my head, but we did manage to finish before the rain started with the help of my BiL and nephew. We then took them out to Dave & Busters for games and food. Next Sunday the movers-by-the-hour will move the large pieces of furniture.

I'd really rather be organizing my kitchen than at work.

Listen to WindSparrow, for she has broken it down neatly.

Sometimes I find myself coming in just because it seems like less trouble than calling in and arranging for a sub. Kind of social phobia trumping depression, I guess. (Which is funny, since it's usually such an enabler. They're so codependent.)

So the distress tolerance is just hunkering down until you can talk to your therapist, right? {{{vw}}} You've been doing so well lately. You'll make it through the day.

Yeah, pretty much. And I have been doing well, and I know that. I know this is situational, and that a lot of other people, actually, are dealing with it as well. Somehow there is a little comfort in that. I'm a little worried that if I don't take to day, I'll collapse later in the week and miss classes, which I really can't afford to do. So, I think I may just try to reschedule these appointments for another day. I think that may be best.

If you are not sure if you should do that because you are not sure if you deserve to take good care of yourself - take the day.

This is actually kind of where I've been. So...

Thanks, guys.

Yay for all the big moves! So exciting!