What I hate about falling hard for a show? I'm that much more easily dissapointed. I fall hard and I start making plans: meet the parents, marriage, honeymoon, kids, vacations, retirement, dying in each others arms. And then that TV show goes and disappoints me. And all those hopes and dreams are dashed. Now, if it had just been a breezy fling, a show with benefits, then when it disappointed I could either still enjoy it shallowly for those few good times, or just walk away with no heartbreak.
Life is breaking my fucking heart.
My TV Show fiance had a brain tumor, and they said he didn't have long to live, and then he had an operation, and now he's going to live for a very long time, but the operation created a personality change and he's not the same guy that I fell in love with, and since the TV Show isn't actually a human being, I'm dumping his ass so fast. I don't like this new personality, and I'm so in love with the old one that I can't even begin to give the new one a chance (except that I have been, week after week).
And that's the saddest thing: I won't stop watching. Either because I'm pathetically hopeful that the tumor will come back, or maybe just because I'm a completist.