You know you don't have to spoilerfont things that have aired, right?

Jesus, that was brutal. Way too much like my father's actual death.

I'm still working through why it upset me so much more than "The Body."

Just watched it. That duet between Mitch and David did me in completely (the actor who plays David has a lovely voice, even though he does not get to showcase it much). And the True Colors reprise! Oh man.

I still struggling with thoughts about ZEP.

My grandfather had congestive heart failure. He had been sent home from the hospital the previous month and was under hospice care. When he had his final seizure, I phoned for the hospice nurse and started CPR, knowing it was pretty useless. He died underneath my hands.

Almost two years later, "The Body" aired. As I watched, it seemed like I was mentally marking off a long series of checkboxes: "Yep, that's familiar. Yep, did that. Yep, I remember that. Yep, that's what that was like." The background silence was quite effective. When the episode was over, I came away greatly impressed. It had been engaging without being painful, a difficult story well told and deeply affecting, yet it hadn't made me feel bad. On re-watch nineteen year later, I'm still impressed.

In contrast, the season finale of Zoey's Extraordinary Playlist a few nights ago was very painful to watch. I am struggling to understand why. Joyce's death was unexpected even though it had been well foreshadowed. My grandfather's death wasn't unexpected. Mitch's death was completely expected. So why did the episode hurt so much?

Perhaps it was the use of music and song and dance, even though all the numbers were very well done and fit the story-telling so well?

Perhaps it's because of the recent changes to my own sense of mortality. Maybe it's merely because I am nineteen years older now than when "The Body" aired. That's why I just re-watched it. Yet I still react differently to the two shows.

Perhaps it is because Mitch is a middle-aged white male, and I am also now a middle-aged white male? Yet I never felt like I identified with Mitch. I never felt like I identified with Joyce (or Buffy, or Zoey) either.

Yet somehow BtVS left me with awe, and ZEP left me with tears. I'm not good at tears.

I definitely think the music is a big part of it -- it was designed to draw out emotion!

If you want to watch something that's more pure comedy/less drama, this season of What We Do In the Shadows has been knocking it out of the park. The latest episode was centered on Colin Robinson, the "Energy Vampire," it made me laugh so hard, I almost peed my pants. I'm also loving what they are doing with Guillermo this season.

I have not watched the latest episode yet but Guillermo's storyline hasn't been inspired!

Also have not watched ZEP yet.

dcp, I felt the opposite. Or not exactly the opposite, maybe. With The Body I felt like I couldn't breathe. I don't think I could let myself react at all until Anya's speech at which point the ugly sobs started. It hurt. ZEP left me teary, but Zoe's ability to connect with Mitch added some sweetness to the sadness. It made it bearable.

What We Do In the Shadows is the best thing on TV right now. Nadja is a role model.

Atropa, there's a shot in the opening title of Nadja in a leather jacket (with Lazslo) and every week I do a double take thinking it is actually you for a split second. Every week.

(Aside: autocorrect made your name Stripes and when I went to change it back suggested Strops as a replacement and that is just super funny!)