walked around with that serious vagueness of someone thoroughly drunk and trying to find her glasses.

I do that without drugs. It's a gift.

When I go to the ER these days, dilaudid is my drug of choice. About 4mg in, my memory is terribly spotty. At 6? It's not just what I do that I don't remember--it's also what's done to me. Apparently I talk super fast about things I'd normally talk about, but hop from subject to subject with lightning speed. The friend who takes me to the ER likens it to his reaction to Tramadol, but he considers losing control to be taking off his socks when he comes over to visit.

I have to admit it did raise my eyebrows quite a bit, and I had to suppress laughter when he went back 20 minutes later to put them on again.

I remember talking to a friend after surgery, closing my eyes and instantly finding myself dreaming, opening my eyes to see my friend still there talking to me, closing my eyes and dreaming, etc....

Vortex totally kicks ass.

I had to have an exam the morning after I had Owen--they were worried about bleeding. I have no idea what they gave me, but it made a woman who'd just spent 24 hours in labor pushing out an 8 lb. baby not give a shit about the doctors crawling back up there up their elbows. The drug only lasted for about 10 minutes and I sort of remember what happened but I totally don't care.

It's a good thing they didn't tell me what it was because I'd be out trying to score some right this second.

I totally don't care.

I've been told that's what heroin does. It often makes you vomit, but you just don't care. Or if you're in pain, you still feel it but you don't care.

Of course, they don't give heroin in hospitals. But dilaudid is similar to heroin in some ways, right?

But dilaudid is similar to heroin in some ways, right?

Dilaudid makes my pain go away, mostly. Even in general, my goal is only to get it under a 5. The friend who takes me to the ER gets impatient and thinks I should have it administered until the pain is near zero, but thing is...I'm about to sleep very deeply. One of these days he'll have to carry me from his car to my bed.

Dilaudid didn't work on my muscular pain, which I found a bit odd. They had to give me Valium for that.

Morphine didn't seem to touch my pain, but it did make me not care. I've heard similar things about demerol.

Morphine didn't seem to touch my pain, but it did make me not care.

That's sorta' my experience. When I broke my wrist they put me on a morphine drip. Then they snapped the bone back into place. It hurt like hell and I involuntarily yelled out, but I also felt somewhat removed from the pain - almost as if the person yelling out in pain was not me. Weird.

Huh. Morphine pretty much removed the pain from my kidney stone, but did little to change my outlook on life.

Valium is the one that makes me not care. Vicodin just makes the pain go away.

Actually, no, I'll agree on the morphine. I had that for my wisdom teeth (which had to be broken, cut, and forceped out) and it was like "Wow, I bet that really hurts."

I don't know what they gave me for my leg surgery, but apparently it's not really a full anasthetic, you can talk coherently while on it, you just don't remember. Must be the same stuff your sister had, ita. The whole concept bugs me.

I've never had anything but a local. Well, and advil.

My main focus on morphine was talking coherently. Which apparently translated into talking loudly. And then it turned out that the person in the bed over knew one of the krav instructors.

I think I was sufficiently coherent that my ride (Burrell's DH) didn't know I was so very close to totally out of it. But it was work.