I woke up this morning telling Spidey that I had dreamed about body paint. That I was upset because I had lost the red and I wanted to write expletives in large block letters and then I had looked at my left bicep and spidey had written something I couldn't read in neat black letters.

Spidey said, "Maybe it was a love poem by Sappho"

A lot people at the time did not think Vietnam strategically important. The whole "Domino" theory was a rationalization for why it was worth fighting over an otherwise unimportant nation. Oh I'm sure the people who advanced it were sincere, but they also had all these theories about how to win wars with airpower, and minimal numbers of ground troops that they wanted to test.

Wait, how did this become about the Domino Theory? I wasn't invoking it or talking about whether Vietnam was worth fighting over. I was talking about the potential for disaster that war posed (not who won/lost South Vietnam).

Al Gore said Iraq is the worst strategic mistake in our history. Gud originally questioned that. You countered that the middle east is much more strategically important than Southeast Asia. Gud said, "From a strategic standpoint a disaster in the Middle East trumps a disaster in Southeast Asia."

You're both right right now, but that wasn't the case then -- not because of the Domino Theory, but because of the century and a half of conflict in Asian/Western and Asian/Asian conflict, in Asia, prior to the Vietnam War. Highlights include: the Opium Wars; the Franco-Chinese war; the first Chinese-Japan War; the Boxer Rebellion; the cultural revolution; warlord rule; WWI; the second Chinese-Japan War; WWII.

Think about all the nations that had a dog in the fight in Vietnam besides the US and Vietnam, itself: the USSR; China; South Korea; North Korea; Australia and NZ; France, Thailand, the Phillipines.

The Vietnam War happened in a powder keg, and so much of it was a cock-of-the-walk fight between the US and the USSR. A new war any place in Asia, so soon after WWII and Korea, had the potential to kick off a third world war, just as a war (right now) in the middle east, has the potential to kick off a third world war. We're lucky we got out of Vietnam, without one.

Gud was right to question Gore's statement, not because Iraq isn't a mistake and isn't a huge stinky morass, but because we don't yet have the perspective of history on Iraq, to decide whether our involvement in Iraq is the worst mistake in our history to date. The disaster that was the Vietnam war, in that time and place, had the potential to end up a worldwide disaster, much as the diaster that is the Iraq war has, in this time and place, the potential to end up a worldwide disaster.

Iraq feels bigger now, because stuff in the now always feels big.

I did a weak and terrible thing and bought these. Perhaps they won't fit and I can just send them back. Perhaps I'll get a job this week.

Those shoes are hot. If it helps any, when I spent all of my graduation present money at a spa before I had a job, I did in fact get one soon after.

If it helps any, when I spent all of my graduation present money at a spa before I had a job, I did in fact get one soon after.

You've got to spend money to make money?

Those shoes are hot.

Possibly. Or, maybe it's not worth it to deny yourself all good things during a time of temporary financial tightness.

Probably not.

I'm paralyzed by indecision. I feel like crap. I didn't sleep well. Woke up crying this morning. The thought of 8 hours with 12 year olds is killing me. I could and should call in sick, but I've been out for 2 days at a training and don't have any sub plans just sitting around. What should I do? Call in sick and scramble to make up something for them to do? or call in sick and just say fuck it and leave a message to get a video at the library? Or just suck it up and spend a miserable day at work, possibly puking by 10:00 AM?

I vote for the video plan, Kat. I don't know details, but it's clear from your posts that you've been dealing with health issues for a while. If you feel this badly, you need to rest and take care of yourself.

Kat, could you combine the options? Like, be there yourself, but without heavily teaching, only that video from the library that a sub would probably get anyway?

Less guilt for not being there, less effort for actually running around and worrying?

[Edit: my best friend is giving birth right now. I can't do the slightest bit of work, no matter how I try to pull my concentration together.]

I just called a sub. I find when I'm there, Nilly, I'm usually sick at 10:00 until the end of the school day. It makes for a long day for me and some days I can handle it and some days it kills me. So today, it would be bad. I'm forgiving myself.

So today, it would be bad. I'm forgiving myself.

Very good.

It's one thing to try hard and make your best effort. It's another, to know yourself enough to realize that despite all that, some things simply couldn't work. Good for you for knowing yourself well enough.