Huh.

connie, I think there are very different factors - and individual needs - at work here.

If the main or immediate purpose for someone writing is validation, then I don't get it. For me, good cookery or providing someone I adore with unforgettable sex or any number of things will produce that. One of the few things that it would never occur to me to look to for that purpose is my writing. I'm not judging, or sneering, or dissing - I'm just scratching my head, because I don't get it. The numbers are important to me so that someone will continue to pay me to do it again, but validation, certainly instant validation, isn't part of my equation. If it was, I'd shoot myself, because it so rarely happens anyway. I write because there are people in my consciousness, and a road they want to travel, and a story, and I want to tell it. That's all. That's my spur.

If people do love it - or are moved by it, like the girl who started my new year right by writing me a wonderful fan letter this morning - that's gravy. It's a bonus. It's yummy and I love it to hell and back.

But as a spur for writing? No. Not for me, anyway.

No, I don't mean that. I did it for a long time before showing it. But that is why I like the Fanfic, besides Munch being the devil on my shoulder, of course.

erika, nope, I meant specifically connie's thing about fanfic. And I get the desire - it's really nice to post up something in Sunday 100 and look at my email a few minutes later and see fourteen responses.

But somehow, the idea of not sharing the original fiction, or of being unwilling to submit the original fiction, because it might get snooted, or might not generate a response - that's the part I don't get.

I love writing fanfic. I love reading a good deal of it; Roz write astonishing and elegant stuff. Her piece on the First Slayer, "Bed of Bones", could be taken entirely out of the Jossiverse and read as an amazing piece of sorrow and incomprehension, a metaphor for female adolescence. Great fanfic is like that.

But it's very limited for me, since they aren't my characters, they aren't on my roads, and I'm very confined by the parameters of a universe I had no hand in conceiving. That's why, when the Simon Spotlight people asked Jenn to ask me if I wanted to do novelisations, I backed away, crossing myself and flinging holy water. I can't do it.

Deb, in completely unrelated news, insent.

And backsent to you, darlin'.

And backsent to the backsent.

And now I think I need to eat something.

OK, so the My Turn piece is done and submitted. Off my plate. No need to even think about that for awhile - it could be months before I hear anything at all, even a polite "no thanks".

I need to write Chapter three of "Cruel Sister" and then two quickie blurbs for potential books 5 and 6, to pitch. Will probably post blurbs here, since they aren't copyright issue thingies, and beg for feedback at large.

I guess what I mean by worthy is that I don't just want to be published, I want to be a great writer.

If you set out to be a "great" writer, you will accomplish absolutely nothing. It's a ridiculous bar, and it will prove nothing but counterproductive.

Set out to be the writer you are. Always push yourself to be the best you can be, and always attempt to push in new directions, but attempting to be "great" is foolish, and will do nothing put give you excuse not to succeed.

"Greatness" is for other people to decide and frankly, it's for you to ignore. Because looking to be great is sinmply seeking validation from others, and that will prove detrimental to both yourself and your writing.

Sorry to be harsh, but it's the truth.

(nodding at Victor)

Good point, Victor. Although I usually don't think about it that way.