My book in the fourth grade was all about children who somehow got into a magical land with talking horses. Like Narnia, except that none of the other Beasts did any Talking, because at age 9 I was all about the horsies.

In high school I regularly wrote the first three chapters or so of books about girls who played clarinet or flute (I played sax) and dated the trumpet section leader or a star football player other than the QB (I was madly in love with the drum section leader). These girls were always petite (I'm tallish), with long, curly black or red hair (mine is straight and brown) and blue or green eyes (mine are brown).

I still tend to give my heroines MarySueish hair. I haven't gotten over my envy of natural curls.

Can't share yet. I got permission to send it to ita for feedback for revisions, which I made tonight. Waiting waiting waiting.

Heh. Insanely happy feedback? Is all good.

Me for Avonex and sleep. 'Night, writer people.

I wrote stories for my brothers and sisters all the time, and I wrote the church Christmas and Easter plays every year between the ages of about 16 and... huh..last time was in my early 30s. I also wrote and directed a play in high school. I don't know how I just forgot that stuff.

I've been writing since...ever. But because it was something I could do, I haven't always valued it. But in the back of my mind, I expected a TV series by now.(I'm like an underachieving narcissist...underachieving at being a narcissist.)

Right now, I feel like I've given up ficcing Joss Whedon and Levinson and Fontana et al to fic Raymond Chandler, Dennis Lehane and Sue Grafton. And there's stuff in there my friend Donna told me not to tell, but I didn't exactly, just made up the details because she didn't give me many.

I just got fantastic feedback I incorporated into one piece, and I'm in love with it. But the one I'm working on now has me insanely happy.

Okay, maybe this is just me but I think that this is the important part. Rather than freaking yourself out about whether or not you're worthy to write a book, why not try not thinking about the book thing? The writing itself is the only part you control. So enjoy the process and worry about the rest when you're done.

Does this feeling go away?

No, it doesn't go away. At least not until you've finished at least one book. Probably not until you've sold at least one, held it in your hands and seen it on the shelves of the bookstore.

There's a fabulous Nina Paley cartoon about how she proudly walked into a bookstore to see her first published book on the shelves, and found herself surrounded by towering, threatening stacks of books, clutched her little volume protectively and thought, "Oh no! What are all those OTHER books doing here?"

BWAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

KB, that really is fabulous. Perfect, in fact.

Deb, I just went to the Seattle Public Library website to place a purchase suggestion for FFoSM (since you can't do it more than 2 months or so in advance of publication). They've already ordered 5 copies.

WOOOT!

Lovin' me some Susan. Happy woman.