Perhaps it's best if I never go back to role-playing. I saw the phrase "Hack and Slash", and my Bitchy brain immediately said, "Hm, first the swordfight, then the sex, could be fun."
I see your uhhhhhhhhhhh and raise you a gnyeh.
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Connie Neil - Jan 26, 2003 10:46:25 pm PST #568 of 10001
brillig
erikaj - Feb 04, 2003 11:31:50 am PST #569 of 10001
Always Anti-fascist!
Hi, everyone. I've got a character who has to decide not to kill herself(cause if she goes through with it, the story will be too short and it will undermine my message, anyway.)I know, sort of from experience, that wanting to live can be sort of a gradual realization, but what would that first moment look like. She's young and single, no kids.
Betsy HP - Feb 04, 2003 11:33:13 am PST #570 of 10001
If I only had a brain...
It can be something really, really stupid. Like "If I survive till my next birthday, I'll buy myself that trip to Spain."
DavidS - Feb 04, 2003 11:34:37 am PST #571 of 10001
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
It can be something really, really stupid. Like "If I survive till my next birthday, I'll buy myself that trip to Spain."
Something direct and mundane and concrete is good. Like, Anya's fruit punch scene in "The Body." "Shit, I'll never have peanut M&Ms again! Forget it!"
Connie Neil - Feb 04, 2003 11:37:43 am PST #572 of 10001
brillig
A fresh batch of chocolate chip cookies could make the difference for me.
erikaj - Feb 04, 2003 11:43:54 am PST #573 of 10001
Always Anti-fascist!
Yeah, that was where I was going, but you guys are better at focusing it than I had been. Thanks.
Ms. Havisham - Feb 05, 2003 5:36:11 am PST #574 of 10001
And we will call it... "This Land."
It can be something really, really stupid. Like "If I survive till my next birthday, I'll buy myself that trip to Spain."
Just to add... it can also be something like "But if I screw up and survive, how'm I going to explain it?"
Liese S. - Feb 10, 2003 12:13:28 am PST #575 of 10001
"Faded like the lilac, he thought."
I think the thing about moving from suicide is starting to see the future. To be able to visualize something for yourself beyond the pain and despair that has you wanting to be done with it all. Suicide comes out of a lack of (perceived) options. Leaving it comes from realizing there are other things that could happen, and that you can choose one of those other things.
That's what the triggers that everyone else is talking about are. They're what make you see that outer world. They're what make you aware of the possibility of otherness.
askye - Feb 10, 2003 10:38:52 am PST #576 of 10001
Thrive to spite them
There could also be the realization that you don't want to actually die, that it's not the end of your life you want but the end of this painful existance, that what you really want is some way to be reborn into a life that is new and better and painfree. And dying isn't going to give you that option.
Betsy HP - Feb 10, 2003 10:41:26 am PST #577 of 10001
If I only had a brain...
That's what the triggers that everyone else is talking about are.
No, actually. I'm talking about what happens before the dawn starts to break. How you hang on when you can't see the future, when you don't believe things can ever get better.