Are you giving yourself treats as well? Cause bug's need treats too.

Yup. Had a pedicure and dinner today with J. Then I came home and packed 12!!!!! boxes. Scarily, I still have many more to go.

I know I have less of a right to it than vw, but, goddamn, I'm sad that Emily's gone. Like, whoa. I am feeling quite bereft that she's gone. I don't have enough friends that they can be moving to the other side of the country all willy-nilly!

I have waited until now to admit this to myself as well as others because, um, you know, not about me and also this is good for Emily. But I am really, really sad.

Otherwise- today, instead of doing schoolwork, I decided I needed one day of total rest, in order to tackle the week ahead, because I'm moving into burnout territory, and I'm lucky enought to have the opportunity to take this day, so I did.

You know how when you're running around all crazy busy with no down time except to sleep you forget about all these crazy things called emotions and fears? And then when you have a second to breathe, they come back up from where you stuffed and suppressed them and you just cry and sleep all day? Yeah. That's my Saturday.

There was also some nice loving and a most excellent mussel extravaganza, so it was a day of many emotions and even though some of them were sad, that's OK.

So, we are having a few friends over to celebrate my 50th birthday in a couple of weeks. It's a pretty big birthday, so I wanted something special, but I don't know what. I know I DON"T want decorations saying "over the hill" which seem to be a very popular item for this particuular milestone. BF is throwing the party, but welcomes input. I first thought of a white party--asking everyone to wear white, which looks very pretty, but it seemd a little forced. I thought maybe a theme of some sort, like 50's rock and roll, with record-themed stuff, but maybe that's too goofy. I just don't know. Anyone have any ideas?

I just don't know. Anyone have any ideas?

Themes? You want themes?

Italian 50s! Ciao! Ciao! Go totally Fellini with a La Dolce Vita party. We'll get you the Anita Ekberg dress.

Beatnik 50s! Bring bongos and goofballs! Spontaneous and earnest poetry recitations. (See: Highschool Confidential, or just ask me to provide you stuff from my large collection of beatnikiana.)

Space Age Astro 50s! Everybody wears something shiny, pointy and futuristic. I can help with the cocktails (all of which should glow) and the music (space age bachelor pad music, 'natch). For my 32nd birthday party I threw a Cocktail Party on Mars. Everybody came in costume (including Francesca Lia Block). It was a big hit.

Hey Cash, still thinking about that pixie cut? Another glam pixe.

This one is for meara and Jilli.

takes notes for next birthday party

It's a pretty big birthday, so I wanted something special, but I don't know what.

I went to Joshua Tree with Lori for my 50th. It was the bestest even though my rock climbing was pathetic. Then again going off to the desert when there is a party at home probably not a good plan.

Beatnik 50s!

Yes! Go Beatnik, Choose Beatnik!

Planning a period food event [link]

I went to Joshua Tree

Isn't it just amazing there?

My last birthday? Total dud. Depressing family dinner.