Xander ,'Beneath You'
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Except for the part where it terrifies me that I haven't done enough yet.
perzactly.
But I've (honestly) been feeling that way since I was ten, so I'm thousands of dollars of therapy away from not having that panic.
you should get started on paying off that therapy bill.
I don't care about the age thing, it just seems odd. People never think I am as old as I am and I never lie about my age.
The fact that my brother is 27, now THAT is freaky.
I, for the record, don't mind being about to be 38. Except for the part where it terrifies me that I haven't done enough yet.
Which is why the death of Dana Reeve, at 44, hit me so hard this morning. Lung cancer, and she was a lifelong non-smoker.
For knitters, how's this for your next project (PDF).
you should get started on paying off that therapy bill.
Girlfriend, I'm never having it.
Fact is, I started out feeling like an underacheiver when I was as much of a prodigy as I was ever going to be. Now that I'm a more average specimen, well now it's just more true, isn't it? Where's my PhD? My seat on advisory boards? My black belt (okay, maybe I can pull that off next year, but I still won't think I'm a good enough black belt, I can assure you)? My two children? My house? My three dogs? My...I dunno. Other stuff that I'm not even sure I want.
That's just how it goes. I tried to push my sister into doing stuff because she had a three year lead on being a whizkid. When she refused to read the bible at age 7 I knew I had a fight on my hands. But she graduated summa cum laude from McGill and got a full ride to Cambridge and then some of a ride there for her PhD.
God, what if she's my greatest achievement?
Yikes.
To clarify, I don't think 38 is old, per se, and I have no doubt I'll be fine once I go through the gradual increments of getting there year by year. The mental jump of adding 5 years all at once is the weird part.
Also, in my mind I am still 28 and expect to be for a while. I think it is my One True Age.
What's fun about being in school is that I can guarantee my life will be drastically different five years from now. However, I'm hoping it's also drastically different from five years ago.
Also, in 5 years I'll be 38. Ugh.
I'm with Calli. I'm 38 and it's been a pretty great year thus far.
you feel guilt for not having stuff you don't even want and you won't get into therapy?
mmm ok.
I am no age. It doesn't matter. Somehow I separate it from all the time the psycho part of my head thinks I've wasted.