I just wish I was doing better at this.
Some shit is just difficult, and can't be done better at. Not hating yourself-check. Now, stop beating yourself up.
How's it sit? Pretty cunning, don'tchya think?
Jayne ,'The Message'
Spike's Bitches 29: That sure as hell wasn't in the brochure.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risque (and frisque), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
§ ita § - Apr 10, 2006 11:55:46 am PDT #8516 of 10001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
Lee - Apr 10, 2006 12:33:23 pm PDT #8517 of 10001
The feeling you get when your brain finally lets your heart get in its pants.
What ita said, Gud, especially the stop beating yourself up part.
And the we like you part.
And the surviving taking courage part.
And the rest.
beth b - Apr 10, 2006 12:37:13 pm PDT #8518 of 10001
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
I am sorry this is so difficult, Gud my understanding is that things often get worse before they get better. For you I am hoping that these last couple of months will be the worst that there is before things get better ( whatever better means in this case)
vw bug - Apr 10, 2006 12:53:33 pm PDT #8519 of 10001
Mostly lurking...
Dinner is crap. I think it's just about time for me to give up for the day and go to bed.
Typo Boy - Apr 10, 2006 12:55:21 pm PDT #8520 of 10001
Calli: My people have a saying. A man who trusts can never be betrayed, only mistaken.Avon: Life expectancy among your people must be extremely short.
Gud, it does not sound like she is doing your part. If fixing the problems is 100% your responsibilty then it is hopeless. Fixing a relationship takes work and compromise by both parties. This is not a question of whether she is awful or not. This is a question of whether she will do what is needed to make things work.
Gudanov - Apr 10, 2006 1:17:48 pm PDT #8521 of 10001
Coding and Sleeping
If fixing the problems is 100% your responsibilty then it is hopeless.
I think this is part of the problem right now. It's hard to....well, it's just hard.
Gudanov - Apr 10, 2006 1:20:25 pm PDT #8522 of 10001
Coding and Sleeping
Dinner is crap. I think it's just about time for me to give up for the day and go to bed.
Aw, don't let a subpar dinner get you down. I make uninspiring dinners all the time. Last night's grilled chicken, grilled corn cobs, and rice (not grilled) came off really well, but for every one of those there is a clunker. It's no big deal.
Laura - Apr 10, 2006 1:25:20 pm PDT #8523 of 10001
Our wings are not tired.
Bobby got a Free Kid's Meal certificate from Roadhouse (or as we call it Roadkill) Grill as a reward for grades at school. So the kids and I are going there tonight. I'd say it was nice of the place to give out certificates to the schools, but I'm sure they do ok with the adult meals they sell with the free kid's meal.
Also, 2 for 1 wine. I'm outta here...
Betsy HP - Apr 10, 2006 1:28:31 pm PDT #8524 of 10001
If I only had a brain...
Gud, what does the therapist do after you ask for change in your wife? How does she handle the resulting anger?
Because I'm with Typo Boy -- one person acting alone can't fix a relationship. Both people have to be willing to do the work.
Stephanie - Apr 10, 2006 1:49:33 pm PDT #8525 of 10001
Trust my rage
I'm going to delete this in a few minutes, but...
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