I can't argue the 'wait' advice. It is wise. I know that.

I really do feel like crap still. And there are lots of good things to commend him. But this money thing has been hanging over our heads for weeks now. We've been 'going to' have a talk about it...which he says will go much more easily than I imagine...and yet it hasn't HAPPENED.

And I'm feeling this manic need to clean up everything in my life. But I guess it can wait. Though the internal pressure is huge.

Second, third, fourth or fifthing everyone else. Fevers are nasty, bossy, hallucicogenic things, and you don't really want to ever do or say anything important until they're well past. Plus, in-person is best. The two of you have already done so much successful talking through of so many issues; I have total faith in your non-fevered self's ability to sit down with Fella and talk it out.

Beej, try to let of the internal pressure to clean up everything someway else if you can. Make lists of things you need to do, clean out a purse or a junk drawer that needs organizing, something that will make you feel better.

sj is wise, and probably most productive as well.

You're the best. And right. And wise. And all good things.

I think what I really need to do is go back to bed and cry for a while...then clean out a closet and make those lists. That will make me feel more powerful than my totally smited by life-feeling self right now.

Oops. I didn't make it back to bed before the tears. poop.

Thanks guys. I'll come back when my head is less...itself right now.

sj is wise, and probably most productive as well.

Bwah! I am so not productive. I have a vague idea of how to be productive and I give good advice sometimes, but I am awful at taking it. Right now I am making three separate lists of things that I need to do for this move, and it is freaking me out.

The rental agent promised he would call me back in a half hour. He hasn't. I need to shower and get ready for class. I can't stand this man, and I can't wait until I don't have to deal with him anymore.

sj, if he didn't keep to the timeframe he set, shower and go to class without a second thought. Pffft on him.

Job ~ma, Spidra. I wish I had a lead for you.

Beej, I hope the conversation, when it happens, does go more easily than you hope.

For the next three days, there are not enough hours to get things done here at work. And yet, I feel compelled to keep up with the Bitches...

sj, if he didn't keep to the timeframe he set, shower and go to class without a second thought. Pffft on him.

I already missed two of his calls last night because he called me at my apartment instead of on my cellphone as I asked him too. He is getting pissy with me, and I am getting pissy with him. I just want to set up the appointment to sign the papers. I'm giving him 10 more minutes and then I am getting in the shower and making Dave deal with him.

Dear Professor From Another State,

When you called me yesterday, I agreed to look something up for you as a favor, and I told you I couldn't be sure when I'd have a chance to try and find what it is you want. You've now sent me two emails and made another phone call to check and see how I'm doing. Leave me the fuck alone, you impatient ass. Use the time to look up "favor" in the dictionary.

Kisses, Me