I think intervention is the only cure. Though I seem to have closed it in disgust after about 7 chapters.

You know what you must do now. Delete the link from your favorites, too, or it will just draw you back in.

I found it by accident when looking for some (other) AU Spike/Buffy someone had recommended, one that convinced me that yes, most Spike/Buffy just sucks rocks. (I mean, I already pretty much thought that, but this was just confirmation)

So, no worries that it's in favs.

Oh, *shit*.

This is not okay! This is not an okay state to be in, at the computer fifteen minutes past midnight reading these stories that completely scare me, completely viscerally deeply *repulse* me, and yet are so equally-viscerally compelling, and *very* well-written on top of that, and, and, that is not okay! That I'm so keyed up by these stories, in a way I don't *often* but have before been, that in order to keep from yelling aloud I have to clamp my hand over my mouth and breathe in rhythms, to keep from waking the house with my excitement. I can't remember the last time writing got to me like this. Maybe the Scariest Harry/Draco Ever fic, that was pretty intense. Christ.

I want to run yelling to Audrey Lemon and ask her to please, please, please write more.

I want to erase the history of this from my computer and forget it ever happened. I have serious gut/intellectual problems with incest. And the meta-thrill paradox of this being so upsetting but still so well-done-- I like it so much.

I'm going to have the worst fic-hangover in the morning.

I keep running into stories that are deeply disturbing but just so well written. I tell Amy, "I just read the most wonderful story. Don't go anywhere near it, you mustn't read it, it was just so amazing." It generally involves kids being seriously hurt, which upsets her. I generally test read/view things for her. But I was able to show her a good-parts verson of Silence of the Lambs that showcased the amazing hottitude of Starling/Lector and why Hopkins won that Oscar while avoiding the worst of the gore. "And hte rest of it just gets messy from here, so we'll just rewind it now."

Okay, hitting the "More Random Crap I Want to Read" bin.

We'll start with Wes pairings I haven't seen.

Oz/Wes, Gavin/Wes (okay, so I might have to write that one), Riley/Wes, Anya/Wes (hmm. Would almost have to be played for comedy, post 6/3.)

Then the just way random shit

Oz/Connor, Mayor/Snyder, Ethan/Olivia.

I saw an Oz/Wes somewhere recently, but now I can't remember where. Sheila, or maybe Kate Bolin. I think.

I really loved those Lost Boys incest stories, and then I decided to see the actual movie, and it killed it for me. "But, but, but they're so young!" I thought. "They have baby fat! They have chubby cheeks! I can't read about those children having sex," and indeed I can't anymore.

I was also having fun mocking the badness of the movie until I hit a scene that scared me, and then I stopped watching. Because I'm not so good with the fear.

Signed,

Wimpista

(Um. Yeah. Sometimes I do have to watch Buffy with the lights on.)

I haven't seen Lost Boys since I saw it in the theatre when it first came out. I remember it being kinda silly and kinda scary, and that Keifer Sutherland was hotter than Austin in August. When I met my husband (14 years ago - ack!) he was a dead ringer for Sutherland in Lost Boys. Which explains why I fell head over heels for him before we'd exchanged more than 3 words. . . .

I saw an Oz/Wes somewhere recently

SeanaR wrote one.

Sweet, thanks, Micole and Shrift.

I have to dash to work, but so far, it's lovely.

And now here I am, and it's still lovely, and I couldn't save it for later. Huh.