Have you found a neighborhood/apartment you like, Cass?

Fuck.

Just checked email:

RacerGirl...needed to write and let you know that [my cousin] Brooke was taken to the ER at Scripps Chula Vista [San Diego area] and then admitted to ICU last Wednesday evening...as you know she has been suffering from cancer for the past five years or so and she can no longer stand anymore treatments...according to her oncologist she has only a few more days left and wants to go home...I will keep you aware of anything new as it comes to light...so sorry for the sad news...Racer Dad

She's battled for a long, long time.

Breast cancer about six years ago that went everywhere and, most recently, her brain. We've known that she wasn't going to win this for maybe a few months, since it got to her brain. But we thought she had more time than she obviously does.

I hope she goes as easily and painlessly as possible. Even if that means before I can get home to see her Tuesday night.

What is tearing me apart is that for the last three years or so, my step-mom has been the one who has taken her to all of her appointments and treatments. They have been very very close. This is just too much.

I hope that Brooke's sister and parents step up and take care of her last days and that Denise isn't left with that burden so soon after watching her mother die.

Sigh...

Oh, cassie. I'm so sorry. Heading out now butmy phone is on.

I actually (and yes, I am just going to put the things happening in San Diego out of my mind for a minute here) found two areas that I fell totally in thrall with.

The Hawthorne District is edgier and full of great places to eat and drink and shop and hang out. So that is Bachelor #1. It's the place to have a six month fling while I explore the city and then we can move on (or stay, it could happen) to whatever is next with no regrets.

Bachelor #2 is the Pearl District / Nob Hill / Alphabet City area. A little more highbrow and decidedly pricier but still much less than I am used to. Pearl is the old warehouse-y area that is full of great shops now and the restaurant scene. Very San Francisco-feeling but not overwhelming size-wise.

I've seen most of the city now so I might end up doing some actual place shopping over the next few days.

Actually I toured a gorgeous place today that I am feeling butterflies over. We were walking around and started talking to a construction crew. Ended up touring the place and there is a 1-bed that is smallish but wonderfully laid out. And a two-bedroom that is ginormous, and perfect and pricey. I don't know if I coud ever leave it.

And since the idea is to find someone that I can maybe move on from in six months to a year due to potential ownership... It's like picking the one thing you will order off of a menu that is full of temptation. And you can't go back every day to try something else even.

I also want to live in Powell's...

I vote that too many good choices is a good thing. As is Powell's

much -ma to you and your family

Cass, so sorry for your friend. May she find peace and happiness at the end of the road.

Portland sounds fabulous. And some of the job listings I looked at looked like they paid better there than what they would here. It's becoming a huge temptation.

sending out th ma~~ Cass.

Today - I finally seem to be feeling the no sleepness. last night I woke up 5 times in my 6 hours of sleep. I think that is asthma. I am cranky. and I had to ask DH if he was trying to drive me crazy. ( he sent an email asking me to help him with something that I no way had enough info to help him with) He didn't do it on purpose - it was ment to be more of a rant/ scream. He is just fustrated because his life is very up in the air. The good news - he'll be staying on the east coast for the beginning of next week, doing work - and possibly not going back to CT before he flys home. Also good. he has seen some of his very good friends( and mine). Bad: his family is at the driving him nuts stage. at about 4 days. which is normal, but he doesn't have me- the buffer - so I am reminding him of how to escape , from here.

Good news - they are giving his mom the good stuff to manage the pain - I am hopeing this will help her get her strenght back

Bad news:( okay more annoying) I got a letter from the unemployment office - say I was over paid. In 2002. I have zero records from that time. and it is enough money that it will make a dent.

I could have gone out tonight with the bayareaist. so glad I didn't . someone else called suggesting dinner - no phone # so I didn't call back.

I am seriously considering hermitude tomorrow.

And I hadn't talked to them much, but saw them a couple years ago at Thanksgiving, when SA was out here, we watched The OC. And I dont' remember seeing them since....and I just got an email that they had a baby! Goodness

Oh, I loved them! I have very fond memories of getting hooked into the crack that is the OC.

So what does "ownd" mean? Owned? You own power, ie, you have power?

Cross-reference the Veronica Mars episode "the Wrath of Con" where the phrase is used in excellent context. The gerneral idea is that it developed among gamers, but it's spread to LJ and I see it all the time there.

So sorry cass.

Beth, I think hermiting is an excellent idea.

I just spent the whole day moving into my brand new single! in James Hall. It's taken seven semesters to get here, and I only have one more, but man it is nice to be in my own space. It looks great too. Of course, this day also had snow, which was particularly great for a moving day; very slick ground. And my roommate, in the few hours I was gone, took all my remaining stuff and basically put it on the porch for me--how completely fucking rude, as I wasn't even checked out yet. Guess she couldn't wait for me to leave. And I'm kind of feeling unliked by many people right now, which is uncomfortable. But still, it will be nice to come back here at the end of the day and doing some hermiting of my own.

So sorry, Cass.

CJ's haircut is adorable.

SA, your former roommate is a rude cow. Get some friends to help you do some cow tipping.

And I'll join in with hermiting. I've got to buckle down and finish my Bitch blanket, soonest. Time to put in the DVDs and get with the crocheting some more.