Well, shit.

Big!Boss just asked me why he doesn't see more of me...that I should be here at least 20 hours a week.

Um...no.

So, I laughed. I don't think that was the response he was looking for.

So, I laughed. I don't think that was the response he was looking for.

I'm confused, though, didn't you have a big conversation about Stuff with him pretty recently?

No. That was my regular boss. I doubt Big!Boss knows anything about what is going on.

I suppose I should maybe take it as a compliment? Or...he's getting impatient about the project I'm working on? I don't know. I'm just trying not to panic and figure out how to work 20 hours a week. I just can't do it right now.

I'm sure it's OK. Don't panic. Maybe mention it to your regular boss though.

I wish I could get DH to quit. He bought a "Quitting for Dummies" book, so I was hopeful. But then one of the kids asked him about the book and I never saw it again.

MG, could you casually point him toward quitnet dot com? You don't have to be an ex-smoker to go there and he could even set his quit date for a year from now, if he wanted to. The people are very supportive and the site has a ton of good info about quitting. Good luck, hon.

I still have no idea why or how Jan 23rd became my quit date. It just sort of happened. Not even a month earlier I had snapped at a co-worker to back off from trying to guilt me into quitting (his dad was recently diagnosed with lung cancer) and almost stopped dating a guy that constantly bitched about cigarettes.

Bad = Killer Cramps from Hell
Good = Leaving early today to get a massage!

I am hoping the good will obliterate the bad. I have taken four Ibuprofen and hoping that will also help.

Since you asked, SA, I'll stop lurking (I'm usually in Natter).

After graduating college early, I was weary and filled with angst and the dregs of rebellion. I went to work at a strip club. Although an interesting use of my anthropology degree, I can't recommend that course of action. I should have moved someplace I wanted to be and gotten a decent job. The benefits of having benefits didn't occur to me until years later. (I sometimes wish I'd gone to grad school, but at the time, more college was not what I wanted.)

You have friends and a strong support system, and you will not be all alone in a big scary world. It's an exciting world, and it's perfectly okay to take some time to try different things and figure out what you want to do.

Go, Nicole!

vw, I agree with Nora, talk to your regular boss about what Big!Boss said.

I'm not going to my first class today. Panic attack. I am trying to pull myself together for the second class.

General poll: what did you do after you graduated college?

moved to England for 8 months or so on a great program called BUNAC It's a student exchange program, but you retain your student status for up to a semester after you graduate, they give you a work permit, the amount of time depends on the country. so, worked for six months, ran around Europe for another six weeks or so, came home and worked for a few months, then went to law school

Thanks for the site Nicole. I'll probably have to ask for it again as my brain is full of holes these days. I think his biggest problem is the physical habit of smoking. I suspect he wouldn't know how to drive without a cigarette.

Today sucks. Mightily. I want a do-over.

Tomorrow we see the lawyers again and sign the guardianship paperwork. I want to take BART, DH wants to drive. Our appoitnment is at 5pm and their offices are on Market near the Civic Center. I so don't want to deal with traffic and parking.