I just got the cutest picture of Oz curled up with the greyhound we're babysitting. OMGSOCUTEICOULDDIE!!
I'm sort of feeling all over the place and flaky. Stuff that I felt all gung ho about a month ago is starting to lose its lustre, and I'm finding new dreams and plans, but they're slightly tarnished by the fact that I had other dreams not too long ago. Back to school? Wait this thing out? Find something else entirely? I know in theory it's ok to not know what you want, even and maybe especially in your late 20s, but dude, I feel like one of those people who are always making huge plans and then deciding, no I want to make this other huge plan.
It should be said, because it really was a load off my mind today, that Mr. H was incredible to me this afternoon. I was really depressed about my all-over-the-placeness, and finding it hard to talk to him about it because I imagine it to be frustrating for him to have someone he's been really supportive of, thinking they had this plan, to go "You know what? Now I'm not so sure." But, he said it's ok, I can figure it out, not to give up on this just because it's been a couple of months, but doing something else entirely is ok too. Then I got a big hug.
I think I'm going to have a bagel, or maybe some string cheese...ooh or feta with olive oil.
ETA: My thoughts are with you Susan. I hadn't seen the beep me before this post. I know you've been in a state of anxiety, and I hope for peace for you and your family.