We're not gonna die. We can't die, Bendis. You know why? Because we are so very pretty. We are just too pretty for God to let us die.

Mal ,'Serenity'


Spike's Bitches 23: We've mastered the power of positive giving up.  

[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risque (and frisque), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


Topic!Cindy - May 08, 2005 5:14:27 am PDT #7940 of 10001
What is even happening?

I'm glad it made you laugh. I was going to suggest something like "I did it!" Then, I thought of "I think I can," and "I know I can," from that story.

Essentially, you made, "I think I can," your motto, even on days when you were doubting that you could. At your lowest moments, you responded skillfully, by talking to people you knew would encourage you to do what you could do, and love you no matter what you did do (I'm thinking of your Dad talking you out the door on bad mornings, but I suppose it applies to us, too).

Right now, you're at the "I know I can" stage because we're talking about two days. So, my suggestion is as serious as you want to take it. I thought it might be nice to have the reminder if/when find your self faced with similar challenges in the future.


vw bug - May 08, 2005 5:18:19 am PDT #7941 of 10001
Mostly lurking...

Right now, you're at the "I know I can" stage because we're talking about two days. So, my suggestion is as serious as you want to take it. I thought it might be nice to have the reminder if/when find your self faced with similar challenges in the future.

Yeah, it is. You know what's kind of fun about asking people for suggestions? It shows me how I'm seen...if that makes sense. It shows me the different ways I'm believed in, and that's a huge help and encouragement. I can't think of anything I'd rather have on my iPod. If nothing else, I'll have a record of all of the suggestions. It's going to be hard to pick just one, I think.

And thank you. I know I couldn't have done this without all of you. I'm sure I've bordered on annoying at times, but knowing that I can come here in the morning while I'm getting ready and during my break at school has been such a huge help making it through the day.


vw bug - May 08, 2005 5:23:07 am PDT #7942 of 10001
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In related news...I'm not sure if I said it here or in my LJ, or maybe both. But, when I made the iPod deal with myself, I really think I set myself up to fail. We've spent a lot of time talking about this in therapy recently. I'm not sure I know how to deal with success any more. The last few years I've just felt like such a failure. So, I think I set myself up to have a "failure" even if I made it through the semester with no incompletes.

Maybe now I'll be able to accept and see my successes a little more easily. At least I'll be able to look at and smile at my iPod during those times when I really don't believe I can do something.


Deena - May 08, 2005 5:27:19 am PDT #7943 of 10001
How are you me? You need to stop that. Only I can be me. ~Kara

Timelies.

This is day 5 of the bug Nick gave me for Mother's Day. That boy really knows how to give. One of his ex-girlfriend's sent me a card, though. Kara gave me pictures of princesses she'd colored. In each one where the princess was alone, she drew in a prince. It made me worry that she was already buying the "incomplete without a man" line. I think I worry too much.

When I was worried about Aidan falling down the stairs (both of them did it once), one of his therapists told me, "Oh, don't worry about it. Mine fell down the cellar stairs twice, landed on the cement floor and nothing happened. They're really resilient at this age." It made me wonder about her, but feel oddly better.

None of the links posted in the last couple of days worked for me except the Kinsey one. I got a 1.7. I'm "incidentally homoexual" [sic].

I'm sure I've bordered on annoying at times

This is unpossible.

Happy Mothers Day!


vw bug - May 08, 2005 5:29:27 am PDT #7944 of 10001
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Deena!


Deena - May 08, 2005 5:31:19 am PDT #7945 of 10001
How are you me? You need to stop that. Only I can be me. ~Kara

vw!


vw bug - May 08, 2005 5:34:43 am PDT #7946 of 10001
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I think I want socks for my iPod: [link] How cute are those?!


Deena - May 08, 2005 5:35:40 am PDT #7947 of 10001
How are you me? You need to stop that. Only I can be me. ~Kara

I love them.


askye - May 08, 2005 5:52:28 am PDT #7948 of 10001
Thrive to spite them

Happy Mother's Day!!!


askye - May 08, 2005 6:10:03 am PDT #7949 of 10001
Thrive to spite them

vw-- I know how you feel about setting yourself up for failure.

I'm about to be a successful at life as I've ever been -- lving on my own and supporting myself 99..9% ( -.1% because Dad pays for my health insurance). It's very scary and while the part of me that wants to sabotage it all and stay "safe" isn't as strong as it has been in the past it's still there. Right now I'm mostly worried that my two big mistakes at work will lead to me being fired. I'm pretty sure they won't, I'm also having to fight the temptation to quit before they can fire me.

And I like the I know I can suggestion for the iPod.