Crap.

I really need to take an Ambien tonight so I can not stress about tomorrow, not stay up whilst stressing about tomorrow and get up refreshed and early tomorrow to "make a good impression" -- and lure people into giving me money regularly.

The problem? Not sure if I took it yet. I was definitely thinking about it. Even planning on it. But did I? In between grabbing an outfit out of my closet and checking the alarm clock, I don't have a clue if I did or not.

Guess I will wait twenty minutes and see if I am sleepy/sleeping.

On the clothes thing, I am doing black suit pants and a gray dressy but casual feel cashmere sweater. Does this work? It's a business but not suit kind of day so far as I can tell.

Good luck tomorrow, Cass.

I think the outfit sounds nice.

Thanks, Perkins!

I think this trial by fire client meeting is around 9:30 a.m. board time tomorrow, but there is an hour drive up, maybe thirty minutes to an hour for the actual meeting, and then an hour drive back with Company Dude so fling the ~ma at will. I likely need to impress him, and those I will report back to, far more than the actual client. Though if I get the job, I suspect I also get the client as a gift with purchase because they are hard to work with, so that bit going well wouldn't be amiss either.

I am so ready for an income I can count on. I really do want this. There would be a learning curve that could lead to avalanches of trouble but I don't think they want anything that I really can't do, they just want things that I haven't done yet. And those are learnable.

I dipped into a wickedly hot bathtub for a few minutes and either that or the Ambien I may or may not have taken has me feeling like sleep is giving me that certain look every once in a while... It might turn out to be a one-night stand, it might be looking at some other girl altogether, but I am going for it because it might be twu luvzzzzzzzzz.

Night all.

Much ~ma for tomorrow, Cass.

I can't sleep.

I think I may not be able to either, sj. I was going to go try, but then I started looking at furniture at Overstock.com.

Aw, thanks sj. I saw you were in an accident. Are you okay? I am so sorry...

Ima bogart some of the job-related~ma from around 6 a.m. to maybe noon. It just all needs to go well. Then I will see the magical offer letter and I will release the ~ma back into the wild, stronger and seeded with future blessings.

Currently, I am relaxed but not sleepy. I hope the caffiene in the Midol isn't playing drug games in my brain. Because if I get any closer to the earth, I will be mining metal, fashioning weapons, and smiting the fuck out of those that bug me.

eta: Oooh, Overstock... Can you build rooms there. I like shopping when it is like Sims game. Or maybe I like Sims-like games when I get to decorate and command people's lives...

I got about an hour and then I woke up feeling very shaky and unable to relax.

Aw, thanks sj. I saw you were in an accident. Are you okay? I am so sorry...

I'm ok, but I started on a new AD today, so no sleep for me.

Billytea, I saw you were about, or at least in COMM. Are you here too?

I hope you can both sleep fairly soon, sj and Cass.

Thank you billytea!

Hee. I thought you'd like it.

Billytea, I saw you were about, or at least in COMM. Are you here too?

Hi Perkins! I keep forgetting to mention, that book you sent me arrived. Thanks for that, it looks like a very interesting read.