Aimee, do you remember the topic? I might be able to poke through the posts on the LJ community and find it for you.

ION -- New drabble topic!

Challenge #108 (the big reveal) is now closed.

Challenge #109 is lies my parents told me.

I realize this is a VERY potentially 'splodey topic. But it's been rattling around in my brain recently, so there it is.

Lies

"You can tell me anything."

Sure, we can tell you, Mother. It's not even really a lie, come to think of it. You make no promises as to how you'll react.

Which is why Sharon stormed out of the house and went back to school early that one Christmas vacation. Which is why Linda lurked upstairs until just before the school bus got there so you couldn't see she was wearing jeans to school. Which is why you threatened not to let me go back to college when you found those birth control pills in my dresser drawer--"except I'd have to tell your father."

"I wouldn't read your diaries if you'd just tell me things!"

I can't imagine why we didn't tell you things.

Over word limit, probably awkward, but I can bleed all day about lies and parents...

It’s a fine line between lies and omission. There were so many things I didn’t know about my father. I knew about the beer. I knew he spent his weekends anywhere but with us. I knew he didn’t like being around us very much. We never spoke of it.

It was only after that I learned the other things. That he had an affair. More than one. That he hit you, when my sister was small. That he left us for another woman, the life he "missed" when he made the mistake of having a family. That he wanted you to get rid of me.

You didn’t lie. I understand it now, though I resented you for lying when you didn't tell me sooner. But you were ashamed, and you couldn't speak of it, and now I understand that too.

Just Check the Box

True/False: You were a wanted child.

True. You thought my father was leaving you, you got pregnant in your mid-forties, even though you had cancer. You wanted a weapon. True.

True/False: Your father was sick. He needed me. You didn't.

True. Diabetes took a great musician out of his game. The five-year-old with polio, well, she had an aunt.

True/False: You'll never be loved - you aren't lovable.

Unknown. With the one man where it counted, I was young enough to believe you. So call that one true.

Well, what do you know? You never lied to me, after all.

God, all of those are awesome. Karl brings the pain again, just before the deadline.

I think I'm going to have to do fiction again, as my parents never really *lied* to me....

It wasn’t so much that my father lied, although it didn’t take him long to start making big, divorced dad promises about vacations we’d never go on, and visits he’d never make.At least one time, though, I faulted how he told the truth.I was about thirteen and we were driving to have a picnic in the mountains. Somehow we got started talking about marriage proposals and I asked “How’d you ask Mom, Dad?”(My timing has never been much good at all, but enough time had passed that I hoped he wouldn’t sob.)

”I told her a relationship gets to a point where you either have to get married, or break up.” He said, reasonable as always. My dad is often so unflappable, it’s annoying, but at the time it was a relief from being squeezed too tightly by the guy who looked and sounded like our dad, but welled up all the time and told us how much he missed us seven times a weekend and wanted to know just *how well* my mom was getting on.

“And?” There had to be an and. Maybe he was embarrassed by the mushy bits? He was never much good at the mushy bits. Even with me, he pulled back from my new chest like it was radioactive. But the beginning short-story writer felt that that story wasn’t quite good enough to explain fourteen years of marriage and two children, especially with how often my brother and I fought. I would feel very disappointed if somebody asked me to marry him like that, although I was beginning to get that in real life things weren’t often a big deal like on TV where a prospective groom hides a ring in a dessert and forgets which one. My dad wasn’t a one for wacky hi-jinks, but there was a lot he didn’t say. Like “love”.
My dad’s laughter was fond and indulgent. Years later, I would dread that like few sounds on earth. “What do you mean...’and’?”

“You know...” I blushed and squirmed. Somehow, in that context, I was too embarrassed to say “love,” or “can’t live without you,” to my father, who promptly changed the subject while my brain was still saying “Lame!”

Lies my parents told me

We've worked on this. I hold out my hand and say, "please," and he puts the toy in it. I say "Thank you!" and he reaches for it anxiously. "What do you say?" "P'ease!" And promptly, I hand him the toy and wait, eyebrows raised. "'ankoo!" he grins, pleased at learning how the world works. I hope the words, the manners, ease his way, social lubrication.

But what do I say when he learns the magic words don't always work? That hard work doesn't earn a just reward, that one has to be content with self-respect for living with character?

Oooh, Bev, that's a nice one from a different perspective. Nice way to turn it around.

We didn't teach the Easter Bunny, or Santa Claus. StE asked me about SC, when he was in preschool, and I explained that some people believed he was the spirit of Christmas, the spirit of love, and giving to others. He thought a minute and said, "But we don't believe in him?" And I said that was correct. "Would it be okay if I believed in him?" Sure, if you want to. So he did, for a few years, in the way he believed in Superman, or Luke Skywalker.

It was the best I could do, not to lie.

Lies my parents told me

You are an innocent child: book-wise, people-stupid. Mom's just Mom, and don't other kids' mothers get weird in the afternoon, while cooking dinner? She's had a long day, after all, and Dad's traveling again. So the blurred speech is, well, normal. Isn't it?

Don't other mothers hide a glass behind the microwave, tuck a mug into the bookshelf near her chair, leave an inch in the bottle of cheap burgundy in the cabinet under the sink?

You are in college when you finally admit it. You're thirty when she finally gets treatment. She's been drinking for your entire life. She never admits she's an alcoholic: she's anxious and depressed, worried and confused. It's stress, and depression, loneliness and fear.

Alcoholics are bums on the street, smelly homeless men with bad teeth and dirty clothes. Not clean middle-class Irish Catholic women with five successful children and a hyperactive golden retriever. You know that she'll go to her grave denying it.