Good one, Deb.

It's short. But, well, there you go.

Pose

Hands clasped. No smile. Mouth closed.

The body seems to automatically go into this position.

Hands clasped. No smile. Mouth closed.

Give him the remote. He’s only sleeping and will be pissed if he can’t find it when he wakes.

Hands clasped. No smile. Mouth closed.

I want to scream. I want to strike. I want to wake up from this awful dream.

Hands clasped. No smile. Mouth closed. Tears streaming down my face.

The pose of death.

For the living.

Oh, Aimee. Ouch, and more ouch.

OK, two drabbles on this one, two ouchies. I suspect anything I write on this one is going to be either grief or erotica, or possible both.

Meh.

Gah, those are amazing, Aimee and Deb.

Ah, death. Lots of pain = lots of writing.

No pressure, after all the stroking up-thread, but:
Just Good Friends, Pose #9

“Something you wrote the other day really stuck with me...thank you.” he writes.

Oh, yay! Brain points...maybe he’ll tell me the way I think is sexy again. Not quite like being covered in strawberries, but validation’s validation. And I really do want to help him, too, but better not write how much...it’ll freak him out. Oh, I haven’t finished reading yet. He has such great manners...love that. His mama may be crazy, but she did that much...

“...helped me break a co-dependent pattern between me and Norwegian Wood one that has followed me in some of my other relationships, too. Thank you for steering me in the right direction.”

What I write:”Oh, c’mon. You are so welcome. I just felt bad about our fight last week. Ain’t no thing. It was easy enough.”

What I think:Yeah, I’m a genius. It’s not that I’m in love with you and following your moods is as easy as following my mother’s or mine...that I know your prose well enough now I could probably tell where you scratched your nose while typing this. No, I’m the second coming of Dr. Freud, and just pleased to death to help you two crazy kids(You know that’s not just an expression for her, right?) relate better together...of course. Do you always have to be so damn polite?

His reply: “Well, I really do appreciate it.”

What I write, shorn of its Godfather quote:

”Any time...that’s what friends are for.”

Figure Drawing 101

The studio is dark and quiet.

Portia comes out of the supply closet in a short kimono robe carrying a small cassette player. She places the tape player on the platform and unceremoniously, the robe drops to the ground. The instructor quietly directs her to sit or stand or lay--trying to make sure she's comfortable--while we rummage through our cases for charcoal and paper behind our easels.

She's completely at ease. Composed and relaxed in whatever pose she holds. It's as if she's oblivious to the small circle of complete strangers who are trying their best to capture her on paper.

I know she's got to be freezing. Her nipples are erect with the cold on this January morning. I wonder if she realizes how attractive she is. I know how hard it is to hold a pose. We've all done it--the whole class has had an opportunity to pose (albeit, clothed). The first time the instructor put me on the platform I made the fatal mistake of locking my knees and got dizzy after five minutes. How does she do it? I can tell every muscle in her body is relaxed.

Although beauty isn't a requirement of the job, she has it. She's long and lean--her limbs just as expressive as her face. The tape playing is some anonymous electronica--recorded off of Echos on NPR the night before. She is lost in the music. The way we're supposed to be lost in our work.

I try to focus on the subject, not the person. I cock my head behind my easel and just stare. I want so badly to capture the shadow of a rib below her breast and the shorn hair on the nape of her neck. The stub of charcoal is loose between my stained fingers. I smudge a shadow and try to copy the lines my eyes see.

Oooh, Cash, I like that one. Very evocative of the mood.

Haven't done a drabble in a bit, so:

Turn left, twist your right hip into the wall. Tuck your right foot up behind; can you reach it? Yeah, okay.

Now you're in position. Your left hand aches, the way you've got it crimped around that sharp edge. No time like the present. Raise your right hand skyward, drive off the ball of your left foot, push hard as the muscles in your right foot begin to cramp.

You can't even see the hold, but you know it's there, you saw it three seconds ago, but now your head's tucked under the overhang and all you can do is slap the wall with your right hand, fumbling around for that vital, life-saving, tiny little pocket.

It's not there; and you push just a little harder off that poor, over-extended left foot. Your right hand flails, and the tip of one finger touches something--is that it? are you there?--and the right foot, forgotten and vindictive about it, slips.

Down you come, swinging wide from the wall--thank god for the route-setters who know where to place the bolts. "Fuck!" You dangle, pants rucked up under your harness, hair caught in your sunglasses.

"You had it," says your belayer; but she's dubious. And you're losing the daylight.

This is what climbers mean when they say a route is interesting.

Damn, 'suela. Is that about a particular route, autobiographical?