Gunn ,'Not Fade Away'
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I hear other people use the word, and I wonder if I'll grow into it. Looking around, I think "This is nice."
It'll do, for a while.
The itch will come. It always does. I don't know if it's a push or a pull, but it's insistent. I can fool it sometimes, running thousands of miles, but I know it really wants me to cross a border, an ocean, a cultural chasm.
While other people can know, and nest, I can only guess.
Maybe someday I'll tire of gnawing off my leg to escape.
Cindy, I like yours. That picture's info says it was dated 1973--but it sure looks 1940s to me, and I first thought of WWII, and home fires burning, etc. But my second glimpse of the wall took me right home to the Blue Ridge. Those walls, and many of the public buildings, were built by the CCC. There are several underpasses that look just like the arch Gandalfe rides through on his way to Isengard in Fellowship, built at the same time. It's such a grounding feeling of where my life has been lived to see that stonework in a photograph of a stranger.
Cindy, I like yours. That picture's info says it was dated 1973--but it sure looks 1940s to me, and I first thought of WWII, and home fires burning, etc.I decided
But my second glimpse of the wall took me right home to the Blue Ridge. Those walls, and many of the public buildings, were built by the CCC. There are several underpasses that look just like the arch Gandalfe rides through on his way to Isengard in Fellowship, built at the same time. It's such a grounding feeling of where my life has been lived to see that stonework in a photograph of a stranger.That's beautiful, Beverly. You almost have a drabble, right there.
Removed...a little too raw.
Oh, Kristin.
Ouch, Kristin. That's very painful.
One of the things that's going on with me and these photographs is that I have a family picture that matches each one closely. On the shelf to my left is a b/w shot of me sitting on what could be the same wall as the woman in #1, with a similar-to-the-point-of-same view in the background. The b/w of Mom and me at The Hermitage for #2, one of DH on the beach at Cape Lookout, swatting at mosquitos the size of paper wasps for #3. I don't have one for #4, but #5 is Mom and Dad's 50th anniversary party, and #6 is my dad, when he still had hair, in his suit and some nameless friend's borrowed car. From that same day, I have him and Mom, in her flower-print dress and cartwheel hat. They'd been married for a year or two, but they had a city-hall wedding and no photographs, so I've always thought of that picture as their "wedding" picture.
I can't be objective on this batch of photos.
7:40 in the morning and I am counting down to the end of the day. I get into the office and count down the hours until my first break. Then I count down to lunch. Then I count down to my second break. The final count down to 5:00. Only 3 blocks til the train station. Only 5 minutes until the train comes. 20 minute ride. Half-mile walk to the car. One and a half mile drive. Walk up the drive, open the back door and there she is. Excited and smiling, she reaches for me. And I am home.
Photo six, word count: 100
Momma's prominent scowl took on new depth, the day she received that letter. About six months before, my Aunt Mae had caught herself a rich husband in New York, and I figured it must be a picture of their new baby. Since her sister's soft life had been making momma bitter for as long as I could recollect, I shrugged off her scowl, squealing as I grabbed the photo from her hand. "Is it baby Kathryn? I wanna see her!"
His familiar face in that unfamiliar setting brought me up right sharp. "Daddy's not coming home again, is he, momma?"
Such lovely drabbles. Cindy, that last one was a kicker! ita, I like yours in particular because that urge was (and still is, to some extent) a driving force in my life for so many years. I'm at the point right now of wanting to gnaw my leg off. Only the chains have gotten heavier in the past few years and I'd have to gnaw off so much I'd bleed to death.
Personally, I have much to say about home. Only, I'm barely moving on four hours sleep and my brain is in lockdown right now. I think a short nap is in order before I try to come up with anything to match the pictures, or not, as the case may be. It may even have to wait until tomorrow. But I really, really like the topic this week.
Oh, gods, Kristin... ouch. I know the feeling.
This isn't even close to drabble length. I don't care. It's what I want to say, so I'm-a saying it in more than 100 words this time.
With apologies to the Cowboy Junkies.
This Man, This Bed, This Time
That man, that bed, that time: This was where my heart lived.
There was a roof that was mostly glass; at night, the stars speckled the cats as they hunted, or slept in the half-open piano lid. There was a neighbour whose yard ran alongside our property; my Siamese used to steal her pretty unmentionables and bring them to us. There was an inconveniently-shaped kitchen. There was a bed, our bed, sometimes, but never completely. There was - keeping my heart from being my home - the scent of another woman, redolent in every dust mote.
This man, this bed, this time: This is where my heart lives.
They are similar, those two, and yet somehow, the difference is enormous; we are similar, he and I, and the differences are amusing, and mostly perfect. Life is sometimes a jangle of annoyance, sometimes a huge uproarious rush of astonishment and pleasure. We know each other, in the way only two people together this long on the basis of trust can possibly know each other. And this bed, in its entirety?
Is mine.